I LOVE reading this goal.  I understand exactly how you're feeling because I've felt the same way.  What worked for me was a methodical approach and it worked out fantastically.  I can say this after ten years of wedded bliss.  Please feel free to read the story on my profile about how I found my partner.  Perhaps the method will work for you too.  I'm looking forward to reading your updates.  

Thanks for visiting my portfolio and for your nice comments about my story.  I have hope for you too and am so excited to read about your progress.  Wishing you the very best of luck and congratulations on putting up such a courageous goal.